The Daily Miracle

The beautiful mess of my full life swirls around me. People ask how I am, I say "livin' the dream!" Though my response is lighthearted sarcasm, I realized (just today) that I am living The Dream. The one where I become someone's Mama. The one where the baby lives and I finally get to pour out all of that love for child that had been bottled up, sitting on that dusty shelf...waiting. Sometimes I fall asleep to the miracle that life is. I forget. How could I? My desire is to remember, daily. To pull out, of each day, all of the goodness and savor it. To have a grateful heart at the forefront of my existence...each breath, each step. To become so immersed in thankfulness. For this is seeking the face of God. And, I am definitely His seeker.

Breaking Free

I'm leading a guided book study with a friend using Beth Moore's book, "Breaking Free." A poem came out of me during the week of the study. It felt divinely inspired. It felt like it was for the women coming to the study. During our welcome, I bravely read my little poem to them. The night was lovely, powerful. I know that God will speak to each of us directly through these words we read and through our discussions. He has made so much of my old stuff new. He has the supernatural power to transform. I love that. He is simply looking for willingness. Just yesterday I was driving past a church (whose sign always manages to say what I need to hear) and it said this..."God doesn't call the equipped, He equips the called."  I've been feeling led towards some things lately. My walk with Him is getting deeper by the day. I can feel myself letting Him in more fully. I told Him during a major prayer session with a friend to prune whatever needs pruning in me. It hurts! I'm uncomfortable and awkward. But, I'm experiencing more joy in my everyday life. I find myself nurturing my people in new ways. There's a shift and it's my daily surrendering to God's Mercy & Grace. Here's the poem:

*Breaking Free*

Unshackled, unchained
hearts blown open,
hearts aflame.

Tangled, strangled
strongholds no more!
Let God in to explore.

For He will journey
the caverns of your heart.
And, bit by bit
transform you into
His work of art.

Be opened, don't flee
He desires to break you free (and He will).

Your gift, for your work
will be His unexplainable
and neverending peace.

Oh How He Loves Us

The other night, I received a beautiful gift from a beautiful person. It contained a divine message just for me. I could feel, in that moment of receiving, God's love in a way that I never had before. I understand that God loves us through others, through His word. But, I've never felt His direct and absolute love. It was as if the "middle man" had been taken out. I could feel a wave of His perfect love wash over me. I felt Him. It moved me to tears. That same evening I got home after 9pm, let my dogs out and for the first time, in who knows when, I looked up! I had totally forgotten that stars existed. And, oh how they shined in that clear, winter sky! As I was looking at them...remembering there's bigger things happening in the Universe, I felt His love cover me once again. I was struck so deeply at the fact (yes, fact!) that He made everything... and yet... He loves ME.
What was this divine message that I was given, you wonder?! It was my life's purpose wrapped in a bow! And, because my Father (who art in Heaven) believes in me, I will step into that purpose one little brave day at a time.